Why do some Targets have those big red concrete orbs out in front of them what purpose do those big red concrete orbs serve
I haven’t really known what to say on here for a while now. And part of me still doesn’t, but I feel like I just need to wing it. I never thought I’d be alone. Without someone, but I am. And I need it. I’ve been so stuck on someone for so long that it just seems irrelevant to stop doing that. Turning my life around right now is the hardest thing I’ve done. I don’t know what to do, who to talk to, anything. I just want to see my brother and be immersed by the beauty in which I’m missing. Maybe I’m running from my thoughts and problems, but I guess that’s all I know? I don’t know if relationships will ever be for me again. I really don’t. It seems like they will right now in my head, but that’s because I’m used to that. I’ve been with 4 different men all in the past 10 years. Nobody understands that like I do. I’m gonna make mistakes and fuck up right now because I’m lost. I don’t know what else to do. And probably bring down people in the process. I don’t want to be the bad guy anymore. I’m trying to do everything and anything right. Is what I’m doing correct? I don’t know. I wish I had a fresh slate and the mind I have now. Things may be better and easier. Lately all I want to do is escape into something beautiful. Take my mind somewhere else to something I can’t, and won’t, understand. The sky, the stars, the leaves, buildings, anything. I don’t want to be in this right of mind. I’m overwhelmed and ridden of any emotion except confusion, sadness and wonder. I just need something to happen. Something great. I need something to marvel at. A distraction per say. Maybe something to show me what I’m supposed to do. I need silence. I need time. And to be free.
why get jealous of your best friend for being ridiculously talented when you can just secondhand brag about them instead???
So I don’t blog much. Like, actually text blog. But I feel the need to do so today. As I lay here feeling like complete shit, I realize that my life, much like others, could be better. It could also be a lot worse. I have two best friends who make this life seem much more bearable. I never would…